Susan Spess Shay

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How Do You Spell God?

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Ever hear that children spell God M-O-T-H-E-R?

That came from an old movie I watched a few years ago, but I’m surprised at how true it is. (If I told you the movie, you’d probably be surprised there was anything worth remembering in it at all.)

Why did that ring so true with me? Probably because my mother introduced me to God. When I was a small child, she was the main Christian influence in my life. (My dad and I were baptized together, my paternal grandmother a few years later and my paternal grandfather several years after that.) Mama took us church every Sunday. (Dad went quite a bit, but mostly because she wanted him to be there.) She taught us what it means to walk with God. She gave us a love for the Father.

Now here’s the thing that made that ring statement about ring so true. We lost Mama when I was grown and had half-grown kids of my own. But for several days after she was gone, I couldn’t feel God.

That’s a horrible thing to admit, isn’t it? A woman who’d been a Christian for years whose mother was her conduit to God? To be very honest, I’m not sure that was really the problem. I might have just been in so much pain I couldn’t feel anything. Kind of like when a person is burned so badly, their nerve endings are gone and they’ve lost the pain sensation.

The sudden deaths of five members of your family can do that, I guess, so I’m not sure which was my situation.

But I did what Mama had taught me. I ran to the Lord. (Where else is there to go?) I grabbed my Bible and took it with us for the drive from Pryor Creek to T-Town where Omega (my nick-name for my youngest sister) was in Intensive Care.

I dug out verses I’d heard and loved all my life.

2 Cor 4:18–So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Cor 5:8–We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.

Phillipians 1:21 & 23–For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far

And the one that gave me the most comfort? Isaiah 57:1– The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil.

If I haven’t lost you by now, I’ll tell you where am I going with this.

When I drive–T-Town, work, taking my nieces to have our nails done–I don’t listen to music. I like to listen to people talk. Talk radio or speeches people make. (Only on topics I’m really interested in, of course.)

Right now, I’m listening to Beth Moore’s “Believing God” Bible study. Again.

A while back I downloaded them, one week at a time (audio–$2.99 each). I’ve already listened to the entire series–most of them several times. So get this. Monday, I heard something else new. A couple of things, actually. (I’ll save one of them for another day.)

That was another stupid admission, wasn’t it? Honestly, I don’t know how I do that. Do I simply stop listening or do I get to thinking about one thing and miss the next? Anyway, parts of this study is brand new to me.

Here’s what I heard. Beth said that if you think you can explain who God is, you’re aiming too low. Wow. Kind of like trying to spell God, M-O-T-H-E-R.

Or thinking that going to church once a week (or a year or whatever) is enough to get you to Heaven. Or like thinking going to church at all will get you to Heaven. (It won’t, but it’ll help point the way.)

So . . . can you tell me Who God is? YHWH. Yahweh. Elohim. Jehovah.

I can’t tell you. He’s not only your mama (but He was a big part of mine.)

He was the beginning, He’ll be the end.

He. Is.

So . . . any guesses what that movie I mentioned was? 🙂 (No fair guessing if I already told you the answer.)

(Sometimes I talk too much.)

(A lot of the time I talk too much.)